Eye opener

That moment you find out your pregnant your whole life changes forever and over the next couple of weeks and months your relationships with everyone will soon change too. you win some you lose some hey? because it's exactly what happens when your pregnant and when you have the baby. It all starts when your pregnant your childless friends think your a loser because you can't neck a bottle of straight vodka or pop a party pill like you used too & you can't go on out and enjoy the last few months of freedom with them. I was always torn between going out and getting to enjoy that last hoorah of my old life or just napping away on the couch. Couch always won. some friends dropped by we occasionally went out but more and more friends dropped off as the months went by. conversations become painful being pregnant there wasn't much space left in my little head with all that baby brain. there was so much excitement and fear of becoming a mum I didn't want to bore my friends with all this when they can be talking about how many drinks there going to pour later on & where there going for kick ons after the club. because for all those that didn't have interest in my pregnancy there wasn't really much left to talk about. Once bub arrives things get way more complicated, the first weeks/months everybody wants to come say hello I mean every tom dick and fucking harry wants to come to say hello . after settling in every body promises to "catch up soon" or " call me if you need anything" " I'm always here for you " oh please!! but where the heck are they when you do need them hey? adjusting to being a mum isn't easy, in the first few months days are long and the nights are short and leaving the house is one hell of a mission. Even if you thought that you will be the exact person, Once you become a mum you change you change ALOT! Being a mum is the most fantastic and most exhausting thing I have ever done and really I don't have any energy left to care about much else. So I am quite the boring person now to people who don't care about my kid, visitors boot off after a couple of weeks and your childless friends get sick of hearing about your baby So we all drift apart & that's just life. I am grateful for all my family that I have that I know I can count on to occasionally to take me out and listen to all my pee puke and poo stories because trust me there's a lot of them.

Although you thought things wont change when you do have a baby , they do everything and everyone changes towards you. having a baby is the biggest eye opener and it will make you realise stuff you were to dumb and blind to see before.

Having a baby has changed my life in so many ways possible but I am so grateful for the life I have now and for the people I still have now.

so I thank my daughter for making me realise who was real and who wasn't.